False Reflections

If I searched your heart 

maybe I'd see Jesus 
hanging up for you 
and Rising up for you. 
I wish to see 
love for me 
and you and I 
hand in hand. 
I hope to see me 
reflected back 
as something better 
than I truly am.
c. 1999

Note: This was written for an exboyfriend of mine who was very religious. I felt that there was a rift between us that was pointless because he didn't know the love I had in my heart for Christ. However, he is now married to a beautiful woman and they have a baby who embodies the best in the both of them. Truly, I love to see happy endings. They are living theirs and I will patiently await for mine to start.

Shakespeare said it best....

... In that absence makes the heart grow fonder. In my time away (months, I'm sorry!), I've come to appreciate the time I had before to devote to this blog. I miss writing poetry so much and I find myself writing a line or two here and there but I can't find the time to make anything out of them.

I'm sorry I've been gone. Life happens, however, and some things fall by the wayside.

Thanks for sticking around, coming back or joining me for the first time.

I'll try to visit more and post new stuff along with the old.

Happy writing!

(Truth)

Hollows of my heart; 

Neverhwere echoes in my thoughts. 
Wishing to be not-here. 
I want to be with you always. 
When you're not here 
I know you've forgotten me. 
No one needs 
(wants) 
Baggage like me. 
Who am I to think 
you love 
(want) me? 
When what you really want 
(need) 
is everything I'm not. 
You want it all ... 
without the work 
(pain) 
of caring for someone ... 
(me) ...
c. 2000

Note: This was written for SM. He appreciated it more than anyone ever appreciated my poetry. He's now happily married and he and his wife are so great together! This is not one of my favorites, but it was definitely a new technique with the parentheses. I like the idea so perhaps I'll play with it again soon.